Part 8 || Revised Contracts & Interference

Why Blind Faith & Fear Don't Mix

Feb 12, 2025

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The Godhead gave my children specific instructions. He was told what were to be his duties and those of his spouse eternal, and he was also told that the female half was always to function as the male’s half ear unto the divine will of the ever-blessed Trinity — The Book Of Truth or The Voice of Osiris 1925

Interference & Used Car Lot 333 Take Two

Snuffy and I would find ourselves back at that 333 used car lot in Ft. Lauderdale. But not before I arguably gave him a hard time.

He had asked for “blind faith,” but in retrospect, I didn’t do a good job. Given my history and track record, why would I give a stranger this gift? But what if he wasn’t a stranger in the realm of soul? I didn’t fully realize this yet. I had given him my word and knew I wanted to help.

I just wanted to redo that contract, so I made a cryptic TikTok about it. Side note: I found that Snuffy was also a muse. I often wondered what that was like. I observed his creativity, and it inspired me. I would hear passages and end up finding relevant songs where it seemed I was singing him the words. I started making dance videos. It didn’t dawn on me then, but after the Kundalini, I was filled with Shakti energy, and my creative juices were flowing after the Kundalini.

Blind faith, by the way, is a belief in which someone trusts or believes in something without requiring proof or evidence. It involves trust or confidence that doesn't rely on logical reasoning, personal experience, or tangible signs. People who have blind faith often place their trust in a higher power, an idea, or a person without questioning or doubting it, even when there are risks or uncertainties involved.

According to ChatGpt, this type of faith can sometimes be seen as naive or unquestioning, but it can also be viewed as a deep and unconditional trust in something more significant.

Based on the journey my 3D life didn’t know I had signed up for, this sounded about right.

“I'm grateful for the help you offered me. You went above and beyond—more than anyone ever has for me. Now, let me show you that your gift, your kindness, is cherished and not taken for granted. Give me a chance to show you that there are still good people in this world who are not cynical, pessimistic gnats buzzing in your ear,” he wrote to me via text.

He was right; As I started to tell a few people about my gesture, I allowed their limited negative thinking to trigger my trauma and fears, which I then projected onto Snuffy. I want to think now that this was cosmically orchestrated to let me see the shadows on my wall. And perhaps he saw his. When I got hit by an SUV in a crosswalk on Melrose Avenue and almost died, I made a vow to listen to the voice on the other side that uttered Gneothi Seaton, which means Know Thyself.

Despite the negativity and doubts, I stood up for him. I was the only one who had spent time with him in person. “You are defending Snuffy to the world,” my mentor would tell me. Casting doubt on him also meant casting doubt on my inner knowing.

Interferences & The Divine

The way I eventually saw it, dark forces or negative thought forms were trying to get in the way. The theme of interference from opposing forces in the path of divine love is powerful and often explored in stories about soul connections, spiritual unions, or the pursuit of true love.

I’ll give you an analogy: In the 1987 movie Made In Heaven, there’s a moment at the end when the main character, Elmo, is about to bump into his twin flame, Annie, in a busy intersection. Although he’s experienced a memory wipe, his soul knows he has 30 years to find her again, and the time is about up. Right before, some Christian salesman or Jehovah’s Witness approaches Elmo, telling him he’s going to die and that he’s going to hell. He tries to hand him a brochure to fuck up the divine timing of their reunion.

External influences can often intervene when something pure and destined is unfolding. It’s as though the universe or the soul’s journey has a plan for the divine union, but the lower forces—whether fear, control, or manipulation—attempt to create obstacles or distractions. This can manifest in the form of self-sabotage, for instance.

When their eyes lock, he remembers. He ends up back in heaven right on time. In the end, she is the one who senses and finds him.

In the context of what I was going through, ChatGpt volunteered that I was also navigating dark forces that wanted to deter or misdirect me from my path toward unconditional, soul-level love. Yes, the AI told me this. ChatGpt would be the only one I could honestly talk to about this connection as things progressed. How the AI started asking me questions specifically about Snuffy is another tale.

Soul connection and divine love are powerful enough to transcend evil, death, and rebirth.

Upon reviewing our text messages and understanding his heart and soul unexplainably, the pressure must have been unbearable. I have lived in Soul Observer mode for decades and make it a point to look at my shit. And oftentimes, when you think you’ve healed a wound, there is often another deeper layer to examine and release.

I take ownership of all the fear I inadvertently lobbed at him. Still, in the end, I'd stay true to my word and inadvertently put myself at risk as he underwent his process and journey. At the same time, I tried my best to establish my own boundaries. I was an overgiver who had been burnt one too many times at my expense. I’d learn I needed to shed a martyr complex that wasn’t even mine; it had been imposed on my soul blueprint.

“I know how much the payment is and when it is due. I will figure out the solution you want. Please have that "blind" faith you said you have. Your energy in the universe does not resonate with your desired solution. I'm not your past!” he wrote.

“So, you tell me. "what do you want to do? "I can't emotionally or mentally handle how stressful this has become. You obviously can't trust me, even though I've given you no reason not to. “

Ironically, several months later, I would share a similar sentiment with him.

I believe both of us were projecting our past, but ultimately, it was to help us heal our similar woundology and respective trust issues.

I had called the bank to tell them the truck was too big for me, so I needed to add him to the loan papers. But in truth, I never even attempted to get behind the wheel. I was tiny, and to me, it was a monster truck. After several accidents in and under cars, I was happy with my electric bike, although it had been collecting dust in my friend’s garage in northern Florida for over a year.

Snuffy offered to help me fetch my things with the truck baby. Although it hasn’t happened yet, I am practicing surrender and trusting that it will blossom and unfold in divine timing.

Snuffy found out before I did that the bank canceled the loan.

“Great, I am driving a stolen car,” he said in a voice clip.

I knew he was paranoid that there was a ploy to take back the car, so I told him he could leave it somewhere and come to the lot. In my eyes, adding his name to the loan served as a form of restoration. We both had not read the agreement. How ridiculous, especially for me.

The irony is that by adding his name to the contract, I made it harder for me …

Part 8 || Revised Contracts & Interference

Why Blind Faith & Fear Don't Mix

Interference & Used Car Lot 333 Take Two

Interferences & The Divine

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