Part 13 || Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

When Someone Touches Your Vertex

Apr 02, 2025

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Clementine:
“I'm just a fucked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind; don't assign me yours.”

~~~ Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Snuffy disappeared for 11 days after he got the alternator.

In numerology, 11 is considered a Master Number, meaning it holds a high spiritual vibration. 11 is also linked to divine purpose and soul alignment. The number 11 looks like two individuals standing face to face: 1 | 1. This visual is often interpreted as symbolic of two souls mirroring each other—a core concept in twin flame dynamics. The journey of 1 → 11 symbolizes evolution from individuality to unity.

It was also the number of years between us. And eventually, I would catch 11:11 or 1:11 on the regular. Note that 11:11 is one of the most widely reported synchronicities.

I couldn’t understand why he was silent. I thought he liked me, and first and foremost, I sincerely enjoyed his company. I simply wanted to understand, and when I didn’t hear back, I wondered if I was getting fucked over. All my experiences of betrayal were flaring up. I didn’t know it yet, but it included past lifetimes of trusting those who were wolves in sheep’s clothing.

About this time, I was catching up on something otherworldly happening. It was not of this world, but it felt like home. Remember, in the actual unfoldment of things, I still didn’t know what a twin flame was, and I still had not caught wind that the spontaneous orgasms were intense Kundalini awakenings.

People may dub me woo-woo, but anyone who has read my work understands that I am pretty clinical. I needed answers because I started feeling like I was living in the Twilight Zone. I was questioning my sanity, but was this inverted clown world reality?

During those 11 days, The Pattern popped up again on my phone. The astrology-based app was known for its eerily accurate readings.

The Vertex: Past Link & Future Destiny

Snuffy described the app as ‘wild, ' a world attached to us, separately and together.

Our bond was classified as a Vertex. When I looked up more on this, I learned that in astrology, the Vertex is often called a "fated point" in your natal chart. It’s not a planet or celestial body but a mathematically calculated point—typically found near the Descendant on the right-hand side of your chart (the western hemisphere). It represents fated encounters, karmic connections, and significant turning points—especially in relationships. Many astrologers see it as a doorway through which destiny steps in.

Right away, it may have felt surprisingly easy to be vulnerable with Snuffy - and vice versa. You two share a rare connection, but how this energy affects you and how the relationship develops depends on your situation.

Or, the familiarity may have triggered some unconscious fears in one or both of you.
In any case, it’s key that you don’t rush. Let the bond develop at its own pace to create a grounded sense of trust and safety over time. This partnership can help you to heal from past wounds - regardless of the outcome.

The messages were definitely wild and mirrored what I saw, and I felt so much so that I wondered if Snuffy might have worked for the company.

What happens when someone touches your Vertex?

When another person’s planet (like Sun, Moon, Venus, or Mars) conjuncts your Vertex, it's often described as an intense, magnetic, and life-altering meeting. It can feel like “I’ve known you forever” or “this meeting changed my life.” These connections can trigger soul recognition or massive life lessons.

Given the strange events, the planet parade, Snuffy scoring a stranger and unicorn to co-sign for an expensive truck (me) to turn his life around, me having a spontaneous orgasm at my desk, exchanging information for hours, and being made love to like never before, I'd say this was not your usual Bumble date.

I had jumped tracks and didn’t know where it was going. Interestingly, Snuffy would text me this eight months later:

“The longer you stay on the wrong train, the more expensive it is to get home.”

It was another obscure message that could be dissected inn so many ways. (I had not yet uncovered a train’s link to timeline jumping.)

I went over things with my mind. We had been texting very casually since September 2023. I was busy, but something kept bringing me back to check in with him. I somehow knew things about him but didn’t know how.

No one else I’ve met — especially on a dating app - elicited this behavior. I was a serial monogamist who had become a hermit, and I kept to myself. So, for me, it was a notable experience. I liked him before even looking him up on social media and didn’t let strangers into my home.

Little did I know I would be learning some tough lessons and getting my mind fucked like never before. Let’s say the shadow was another theme.

Much later, I found a Facebook profile belonging to him. He’d posted an image of a shadow figure on July 2, 2024. I would tease that he was a man of a few words who spoke volumes to me. I’ll tell you about it in the coming entries.

For now, I’ll just say that oftentimes, people don’t realize that the shadows projected on the wall are of our own making.

I’d love to ask him why he posted this image, but I am not currently speaking to Snuffy in the 3D. At the moment, I am back to thinking he’s a figment of my imagination or a memory from another life—except for the mounting car payments that bring me back to the matrix.

But I am getting ahead of myself again.

When I looked at how often these Vertex alignments occur, I learned they are uncommon. Funny, Snuffy would later tell me he’s bumped into other Vertexes. Really? It was possible. I didn’t underestimate his magic. But I wondered if he was telling me the truth. Maybe those people were the same people born with the cord around their neck. Today, I believe he was dismissive and that this connection did intimidate him.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

I was peeing when I heard my higher self say, “Go find a clip from Eternal Sunshine.”

Ok.

It was odd, but I started getting messages while on the toilet.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is one of my favorite films. It’s epic. The script is alchemical. It peels back the layers—memory, identity, love, loss—and shows you that erasing pain doesn’t sanctify the soul; feeling it does. The main characters — Joel and Clementine — are avatars of polarity—earth and fire, logic and chaos. But they dance this cosmic loop, trying to escape the inevitable: the mirror they find in each other. It’s not just a love story—it’s a mirror ceremony disguised as sci-fi.

What’s radical is the vulnerability in the script. Charlie Kaufman channeled something. He didn’t just write; he excavated the psyche. He shows us that the mind may forget—but the soul etches everything in eternity.

In truth, this film is also about twin flames. They erase their memories (reincarnation), but they still meet. Again and again (fate and free will).

“I didn’t figure you’d show your face around me again,” Clementine tells Joel.

That was apropos. Would he show …

Part 13 || Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

When Someone Touches Your Vertex

The Vertex: Past Link & Future Destiny

What happens when someone touches your Vertex?

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

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